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[Apr. 19th, 2008~08:39 pm] |
Home is where the heart is. Atleast that was what he always told Tesh. But sitting in his cell for three millinia makes Tesh believe hhe have no home anymore. Because even if what he said was true, no heart means no home. And no heart is what is
Tesh has. He look up at the small barred window high on the cell wall as the moonlight shines on the decreped body. His dry chapped skin clings to hid bones, dull from malnutrition and dark from dirt and grime, covered by thin rags. Tesh's ratted colourless hair hung in his dull lavender eyes.
He didn't even move when the door t his cell swung open and two gaurds came in and walked on either side of Tesh. They picked him up, dragging his scarred and scabbed legs on the concrete, as the took him down the hall way out of the prison wing. Tesh took no notice at the pain, nor the blinding light and fridgid cold as the guards took him outside and tossed in on the snow.
Tesh pulls himself on his hands and knees without a thought. He knew what was to come. Not long did a man walk out, dressed in a uniform walk out, carrying a brief case. "I'm going to give you one last chance before the I get serious. Where is he?"
Tesh looks right up at the man. Tesh was worn down, but ready to die for the man he his protecting. The man who believe home his where the heart is.
Tesh spits in the other's face. That man growls and back hands the weak boy. The force mad the boy fly a couple feet and down on the snow. The man grabs Tesh's arm and wreches it back, making Tesh gasp, but he does not scream. He will not let the man make hims scream, no matter what.
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Yea..I was bored and felt like rping when no one could so I made this. |
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[Apr. 15th, 2008~05:26 pm] |
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10 Things Meme:
Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 random things, facts, goals, or habits about yourself. At the end, choose 10 people you think may answer - to be tagged, listing their names & why you chose them. Don't forget to leave them a comment (you're it!) and to read your blog for instructions. You can't tag a person who has tagged you. Since you can't re-tag me, let me know when you've posted your blog so I can read the answers!
1) I am a very cuddly person if I know you well enough. for example, when my sissy and I walk around, I generally either have a hold of her arm, or have my arms around her waist with her arm around my shoulders.
2) I am very emotional. Empathy can be a bitch some times and i tend to get angry when someone near me (even a complete stranger across the room) is angry, and so on.
3) I HATE man made drugs. Completely HATE drugs. Ew....I do not want man made chemicals that are the equivalent to rat tonic in my system. (thought I still eat bad food. heh go figure. HEY I'm working on that!!)
4) I love singing. I sing in the shower. I sing at home where my cat Zuko comes up to me and wants me to serenade him (yes I'm being serious). I sing in the breakroom at work where EVERYONE can here me....(but i sing softer there)
5) I still bite my nails form time to time. It's sad....because i love it when they are long, but then either I bite the tips off..or they break off. T.T
6) I get put off by people (particularly guys) who ask me out on right after they meet me. I prefer to date someone I've known for a bit.
7) I can tell a complete stranger about my issues in life, but I can't even show most of my closest friends my most vulnerable emotions.
8) I have two kitties. Zuko, the daddy, and Caboose, the son. They are so koot. They look dead on save Caboose has a smaller head. (it makes him look like he has a shrunken head >3<)
9) I took classes for Musical Theatre at CCM my senior year in high school. I dropped out due to too much stress.
10) I'm a gamer girl, but I didn't start playing lots of games til after I moved in with my former-roomies almost two years ago.
I tag....![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) draloreshimare, selena451, sumomoslsrzclub, suzu_no_miko, zynnevra. I know that is five, but I dont have that many friends on here. |
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[Apr. 5th, 2008~07:19 pm] |
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| | rping with my friend. Or was. she logged off. ;.; | ] |
I just realized. that I haven't posted in here in a very...........VERY long time. So here I am here to spill out what has been happening for the past.....months? you all have missed? Well....about a couple of months ago I started to fall for a a friend of mine. A guy I work with. Unfortunately he has a girlfriend. I've never been attracted to a guy who is taken before. It sucks, but now it's not so bad. Just being friends is my goal right now. Maybe someday when he finally gets the nerve to end his current relationship I can get into his pants...I mean.....be there for him.....yea.... >.>
Anyhoo, another new thing in my life is I'm hanging out with my friend Martin more. We've been going laser tagging at Laser Web on Fridays, though he's in Kentucky visiting my sissy this weekend. it's been fun. I finally got about 10 ranking. the last time I went I got 7th place on the second mission, and was on the top four on my team. Go me!
Yea...I think that is pretty much it, save I finally got new glasses. o-o I went back to the the full frame. There is a pick of my new glasses on my myspace account. Yea, well I'm off. I'm using my randparents computer while i wait for my room to be rearranged for my computer and then get internet. That's all folks. |
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[Aug. 19th, 2007~12:12 am] |
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Holy shit, I must be fucking pathetic...the only fucking time I post anything is when I'm pissed or depressed.....that is fucking sad.....
Well I'm depressed......again. Why? Hell if I know.....what makes it worse it that the only two people in my life that make me feel better.....arent' fucking there.....one of them is my ex...i'ts kinda fucking weird to be going ot him when I'm depressed.....especially since eh'll think it's his fault.....though he might be right....the other is my sister who is busy unpacking her shit for school.....
Basically I feel like I'll never amount to anything.....that I'll jsut be stuck in Walgreens for the rest of my fucking life....living with my mom...because I'm moving back with her this fall.....I jsut...I dunno....I'm too fucking lazy to do shit....this whole world is so overwhelming and fucked up taht I'd jsut want to give up and let myself waste away.....and any of you dare say, "But we love you.....don't do that!" you know how useful that shit is to the suicidal? about as useful sandpaper is to wipe your fucking ass.....
I hate this world....I hate how mediocre is considered outstanding....how much it praised more than thinking outside the box.....society want fucking zombies.....not people who think for themselves......Okay...so think differently....so I fucking dress weird.....so my beliefs are fucking different....SO WHAT?! It's not like I'm hurting anyone....it's not like the way I dress kills....or the way I think makes someone cry....
What hurts is telling someone they are wrong with something when its' obvious that the situation has many solutions.....It hurts when you turn your nose at some one who dresses differently from you......It HURTS when you let religion destroy relationships....families....friends........lovers........It fucking hurts......
Hah...like I said.....I'm pathetic....I only write when I'm pissed or depressed...... |
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[Aug. 12th, 2007~12:33 am] |
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I lot has happend since mys last post on here.....got a new beau.....unfortuneatly, after severl months of being together.....the subject of religion comes up.....I mean..It bodle me at how some people are so hateful to things they don' understand aobut.....I'm not saying my boyfrind his hateful...jsut afraid of what his parents and family might think of me......*sigh* I really wish people wouls jsut lay off the relgious bullshit and come to realize we all have out different beleifs on how the world works, and funny thing? most of that stuf is alike....I beleive all are right when it come to beleife...because it's your own experiences...and it upsets m when people try to brainwash others to fit into one little section, scaring the shit out of theri own children jsut to get themt o behave.....I's fucking rediculaous!!! People whould not be afraid of their religion....they whoudl embrace it...and if you fulling believe that Jesus Christ is your savior and all that! and That makes you happy?! Go for it! Just fucking GO for it and leave me alone. Dont' try to convert me....dont' try and tell ME I'm going to hell becasue I worship Cernunnos, who by the way is a horned god and his followers have been supressed itn the was of associating him with Satan, which he's not...he Pan...the Green God, who is of the woods, animal..and hunting....the life of wooden nature is his life and pleasure...so yea.....And yes...I'm drunk..and pissed...and dissappointed...so my spelling and grammar is prpbably commiting genocide on all Enlgish teachers.......>< FUCKING WORLD AND FCU*KING MUNDANE ZOMIE LIKE SOCIETY!!!!!
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What Type Of Faerie Are You? (8 detailed answers + anime pics) 
The Faerie that you represent is the Dopkalfar, or Dark Elf. You dwell within dark and evil woods and are gifted in Dark Magic. Dark and maternal, you live with the other Dark Elves but really keep to yourself and your own inner demons.Color: Dark GreenMetal: TinTime: MidnightElement: EarthAttribute: DarknessCourt: Unseelie (Evil) Court
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What Spirit Is Following You? (5 detailed answers + anime pics) 
The spirit that follows you is the Demon. Dark and alone, you are easy prey for the Demon. They feast upon lonely souls who are prone to depression. Slowly, they steal your soul as they whisper words of malice into your ear, making you fall deeper into the darkness and into their eager hands.
Color: Black
Element: Darkness
Gemstone: Onyx
Emotions: Lonely and Depressed
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Who Are You Within Your Soul? (5 detailed answers + awesome pics) 
Within your soul, you are a pessimist. Always looking at the bad side of things, the world is a dark and hurtful place to you. You may be lonely or paranoid about those around you. To you, everything is made to cause pain, and you have been inflicted to too much of it.
Color: Black
Element: Darkness
Herb: St. John's Wort
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Who Is Your Guardian Angel? (7 detailed answers + anime pics + music) 
Uriel. Uriel is the angel of fiery creativity. He inspires inner clairvoyance and strengthens your psyche. Word of advice: use Uriel's guidance in order to strengthen your creative abilities.</p>
Your Angel
Emotions: Devotion, Peace, and Ministration
Color: Red</p>
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[Aug. 28th, 2006~03:18 am] |
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| | listening to Johnny Cash's "Hurt" | ] |
I hate the way you talk to me,
And the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car.
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots,
And the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick,
It even makes me rhyme.
I hate the way your always right.
I hate it when you lie.
I hate the way you make me laugh,
Even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it when your not around,
And the fact that you didn't call.
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you,
Not even close,
Not even a little bit,
Not even at all.
From 10 Things I Hate About You
this is how I've been feeling. Why? i really don't want to say why....some of you might know the reason....good for you.....
I've come to the point in my life that I just need to forget about the cause of my pain, but certain circumstances will prove it very difficult. It may seem like that i'm running away form the source of my pain. Maybe i am...but nothing else is helping me heal....that source keeps opening my wounds, though unintentionally.
I hope that this act will help me heal....it's kinda my last resort before actually going through very dark time emotionally....i've come close to returnin to old ways.......granted it could have been worse int he pain...but that's it...it has teh possiblity to get worse....
on a bad note, my cards and runes hate me....or it hurts to tough them...i don't knwo why.....but they do.... |
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[Jul. 22nd, 2006~04:49 pm] |
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[Jul. 4th, 2006~11:11 pm] |
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| | watching The Librarian: Quest for the Spear | ] |
I don't know waht I want anymore... I've been confused. I've been feeling emotionless, like i'm jsut laughing because everyone else it..or crying because everyone else it...
My grandfather is in the hospital for pnemonia (sp?) He might not live long...
Not much else to say cept David want's to strt over as friends now....I can understand that...I've been panicking that he might leave...jsut because I've never dated someon that long without leaving me... |
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[Jul. 2nd, 2006~04:32 pm] |
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| | listening to Cé Hé Mise Le Ulaingt by Lorrena McKennitt | ] |
YEs...I know I havent' posted here in a long time. No computer ;P. Well I do have my computer back now. I really missed Quasi.
Not much has gone on. Work, eat, play with Quasi, chores, sleep. The usual, So I really don't have much to say except I really missed David. I jsut found out yesterday that he was out of town for the weekend for a family rerunion I think. No wonder I feel all lost....
Neko-chan is going to be going to Chicago sometime....I don't want her to leave (even though she said that she'll be moving back to Kentucky when she feels she can live on her own....I can't remember when she is leaving.
Lately I've been feeling this consuption of irritation and loneliness....and the skin on my hands arms and back feel exposed even though i'm completely covered....the skin feeling uber sensitive to the changes in the virbations in the air, much like hold my tarot deck, instead I feel it without touching the deck and it's extends past my elbow or shoulder. I don't know if the emotions i feel and the vibrations in my skin are connected....but my gut tells they do....
I don't know if I sound crazy or anything...but I think i'm growing more sensitive tot he emotions around me....feeling more confused as to waht I feel....Feeling lost....
I need David.... |
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[Jul. 2nd, 2006~12:04 pm] |
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YOU ARE FIRE!
Your inner element is one of great passion and
intensity. You are a dramatic person who loves
attention and knows how to get it. You tend to
have many
friends and admirers around you wherever you go.
You have a strong intellect, tend to have
strong opinions on issues close to your heart
and don't know the meaning of tact. You are
generally an active person who loves sports and
all things competitive... and you like to win!
Any career that will bring you the attention
you crave and uses your talents of persuasion
is ideal for you. Love tends to elude you
frequently - you can more easily find passion
or good friendship than true love. When you do
finally fall in love... you fall with all your
heart. However, when it comes to the passion
end of things, you are second to none.
Your greatest strengths are your courage to express
yourself no matter what and your incredible
charisma. You weaknesses are a tendency to
narcissism and the possibility of alienating
others with your forwardness. Balancing your
strengths and weaknesses is crucial for you to
achieve balance in your life.
Astrologically, Fire is associated with the signs
of Aries, Leo and Sagittarius. You are most
compatible for either love or friendship with
another Fire Elemental or with an Air. You are
least compatible with a Water Elemental.
Now that you have an idea of your strengths and
weaknesses, why don't you put them to the test?
If you follow my lead I can take you to a game
world where you can explore different sides of
yourself and taste real power....
Which of the 5 Prime Elements are you?
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You are the chinese element of Water. People who
are under the element of Water are creative,
independent and intelligent. Water you are a
dreamer, but are quite vulnerable, and have
hidden agendas. The color of water is black,
and your symbol is the tortoise. Winter is the
season in which Water shines and it's months
are October/November. Your weather condition
is cold. Water is the direction of north, and
your day is Wednesday, while your planet is
Mercury. Animals under your element are
usually shelled. People under you are Turks.
Your sense is hearing, your taste is salty,
your sound is moaning and your virtue is
knowledge. Your organs are the kidneys. You
were created by Metal and control Fire.
Which of the 5 Chinese Elements Are You?
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You are Earth! You stand tall. You have a
reputation as a person who sticks with a
decision and doesn't back down. You love to be
outside and enjoy the sun.
Which of the 5 Original Elements Are You?
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Guardian of Ice-you like to keep things to yourself
but you're a good friend
Girl Guardians of elements(anime)
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You are... DARKNESS!!! You seek out things that are
gone, and people that are lost. You are not
evil, though some may think so. You simply
prefer to think about things that can never
come back. You are more interested in seeing
those who await you in another world.
Which of the 8 Elements are you?
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Water! You're a very sensitive person who can
almost smell it when someone around you feel
bad. Maybe you're a dreamer but you always care
for your friends and family! Great, your
element is Water!
BLUE
??Which colour of Death is yours??
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[Feb. 12th, 2006~09:33 pm] |
Mmmm....I'm in love. my new beu is so sweet, funny, and silly. He's my baby. Teh frist time we talkied ont he phone was for 6.5 hours. ^^
Not much else to say now. Oh, baby need my attention. bye! |
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[Jan. 12th, 2006~05:13 am] |
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Ack..Can't sleep....been up all night....I'm too restless to sleep.....I'm tired...just...I guess not tired enough.....
Well I do have internet at home now so yayness for me.
i'm so ugh....good thing I don't work tomorrow...but i have errans to do. >< gotta love bugeting ><.
Yea, I'm bugeting my money so that I don't spend too much on one thing and not have enough for something that I need. Fun ain't it. *sigh* I really want my iPod now. I think i'll listen to some MuggleCast since I bit behind.
I know this ain't much but yea. |
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[Jan. 1st, 2006~12:37 pm] |
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Happy New Year's!
Is it bad luck to loose your voice on New Year's Day? |
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| Crazy. |
[Dec. 30th, 2005~11:30 pm] |
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| [ | How I'm bleeding |
| |  "TACOTACOTACOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!" | ] |
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| | Clint Eastwood by Gorillaz | ] |
Well I haven't posted in a while. Not much has happend, thought I got my car started two days after my last post. Turns out the positive screw for the batter was covered in rust, barely revealing the treads, so we fixed that and it runs now.
Got my first two check finally cashed so I HAVE SOME MONEY NOW!!! YAY!!! I'm saving for an xbox so I should have on if a few months. Can't wait!! *squee* aaaaaaaaaaannyhoo! my cousins are in til New years day, then they are going back to Georgia.
Not much else to say so bye bye!! *waves* |
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| *spits out profanities that are beyond PG-13 rated* |
[Dec. 14th, 2005~03:44 pm] |
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| | ARRRRRRRG!!!!1 | ] |
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| | Lullaby by Lorren McKennitt | ] |
Well My car has been towed to my grandma's. It won't work at all!! It makes no sound with I turn the key. We think if my be this frayed wire that is causing it. >< This sucks. I have no car and it was 75 dollars for the towing! ><
I'm so hyped up that I'm gonna cry. I almost did at my sugaring appointment today....I just wanna curl up in a ball and cry... |
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[Dec. 5th, 2005~08:03 pm] |
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I found this here.
So, I'm standing at a bus stop and they pull up. A car load of well meaning, bible thumping nut cases that are just frantic! The middle aged professionally dressed woman rushes forward...She takes my arm and with trembling voices she asks...."Have you found Jesus?" Her
eyes plead with an urgency that is out of proportion to a bus stop.
Now normally I just politely decline the sermon, and free religious paperwork that such folk pawn off on unsuspecting by-standers. But, unfortunately for her, she is the fourth car to accost me in the last 9 minutes. So by now I'm beginning to wonder what the heck is wrong with these people. I mean if its not Christians it is the Jehovah's Witnesses.
Can a simple Druid get no peace?
So calmly as I can muster, without being sarcastic I reply, "You people lost him, again??"
The woman looks confused. This is not the response she was hoping for and she needs to regroup. She takes a deep breath intending to launch into her sales pitch for her God, and church, paying no heed to the concept that I might not be into being converted. I decide to not let her get going so I launch into a speech of my own...
"What is wrong with you Christians? Every time I turn around you've lost Him!" I hit her with a glare of accusation. "I mean really..." I take a measured breath. "How do you expect to have anyone follow a deity that you can't even find!"
The poor woman looks stunned. This isn't going so good. Panicked she looks desperately to the car... Surely one of the men can help.... Undaunted I press on... "Maybe the problem is with you people... I mean Muslims never seem to loose there deity. Come to think of it neither do Jews, or Pagans of any kind."
I look at the man getting out of the car. He's all smiles. "I realize you people used to burn people like me at the stake... What was that about... deity even? I may be a Pagan-heathen, but I have never ever woke up panicked that I couldn't find my Goddess or God. They are always right where they should be... In the fire of my candle, in the air that I breath, in the earth that I stand on, in the water of my spring. I never feel abandoned by my deity(ies)."
"Of course, you Christians aren't much fun..." I continue. By now they are all out of the car.
Befuddled, aghast, and at a loss for words.
"Of course," I offer trying to give them some defense for losing Jesus. "He could have left due to religious differences. If I remember correctly He was Jewish. So if you are really so eager to find him..." I smile gently to soften the blow. "Check the nearest synagogue. He's probably in there. Also you folks should try and remember that this is America... Where freedom of religion means ALL religions."
Slowly they climb back into their car and drive away. I stand at the bus stop... No pamphlets, no bible, no dogma. I haven't found Jesus, but I haven't lost him either:)
Someone sent this to you because they believe no one can have to much Deity.
It is a blessing in disguise. You can keep it to your self or pass it on.
Oh, and if you've found Jesus, please get his face on the evening news A.S.A.P so the Christians can stop looking for him.
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| Oh Btw. I HAVE A JOB!!! |
[Nov. 28th, 2005~04:09 pm] |
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| | I'm LOOPYLOOPYLOOPY!!! | ] |
| [ | What I'm up to |
| | Let is Snow by Frank Sinatra | ] |
I FINALLY HAVE A JOB!!
I work at a local Walgreens! Yay for me!! I love it there. Everyone there is so nice. It's a lot better than Krogers. ><
Anyhoo. I just realize that I forgot to mention that here. Well not much els to say here.
Oh Jenny!! What time can I call your rents at home so I can schedule a time to pick my stuff up? Thanks. |
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